okay..so from now on...whenever anyone posts anything on WRITERS CAP...or if i do (as long as it's writing...) i will post in on here as a post...and say who it's by:
yelling and screaming
inside of my head
breaking my neck
skinning my skull
what does it take
for a girl to feel whole?
hands with these scabs
that want to peel off
try on a dress
it's no good
take it off.
staples
replacements
afraid i'll punch holes
in my skinny little fingers
afraid of the untold.
i don't like to yell
and i don't like to fight
but i'd like it if you heard me
declare what is right.
and i'd like it if you'd listen
to my undead voice
to my irquiet
my enhancement
me poke out of my shell.
and i know that some people
they'd listen to me all day
they hang on to every
single
stinking
last word that i say.
i don't want to be their life
where they think of nothing else
i don't want to be the girl
who consumes their whole world.
like a monster
like pacman
a thousand times enlarged
chewing up
and swallowing
things bigger than cars.
and
my mind will go blank here
like the next line
still consumed
each one
one
after
another
consumed
consumed
consumed.
and i'm starting to let go
and forget what is right.
and i really don't want to
i don't want to fight.
i don't want to fight with others
but i'll fight to stay near
i'll fight to stay sane
making the right choices right here.
and i can't forget now
what i've known all this time
and i must tear up the snowflake
without a whimper or whine.
that snowflake
didn't make me
it broke me instead.
and tonight
i'm supposed to go out
not be stuck in my bed.
so that snowflake
it broke me
so now it's my turn
to say
that
I'M SORRY
it's my turn to learn
without a whimper or whine.
that snowflake
didn't make me
it broke me instead.
and tonight
i'm supposed to go out
not be stuck in my bed.
so that snowflake
it broke me
so now it's my turn
to say
that
I'M SORRY
it's my turn to learn
all the trouble this causes
all the choices i've made
all the things that could happen
all these things are insane
they're insane because i know better
but i've made like a fool
all these mindless decisions
just give me the right tool
you gave it to me
you gave me that anger
that disappointment
that annoyance
that "You have so let me down. You know you could've done better."
and i might get angry if i
go over there
and you
have torn up
my snowflake
it's crazy but true
because i must
by myself
shred that snowflake in half
because i must
by myself
bring around my life raft
and i must
by myself
bring me down to the ground
and i must
by myself
find the right tools to be found.
all the choices i've made
all the things that could happen
all these things are insane
they're insane because i know better
but i've made like a fool
all these mindless decisions
just give me the right tool
you gave it to me
you gave me that anger
that disappointment
that annoyance
that "You have so let me down. You know you could've done better."
and i might get angry if i
go over there
and you
have torn up
my snowflake
it's crazy but true
because i must
by myself
shred that snowflake in half
because i must
by myself
bring around my life raft
and i must
by myself
bring me down to the ground
and i must
by myself
find the right tools to be found.
By:singkittyle000 (but i wasn't singkittyle000 back then... i was just me...and i'm still me...but i'm different as well) 12/13/09
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