And It Did

What if I don't want to be "the love of your life"? ????
What if that seems way too big for where I am in my life right now?
What if it scares me away
What if I hurt you
What if I'm too sad to concentrate on my homework at all
What if I've screwed everything up too far
What if I never know how to get out and we just keep going until we break.
What if what if what if it already happened and it did

Broadcast Camp Rant #5

Broadcast Kid W (to me and Counselor Rus the Bus): I have more power over you!
Me: ... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NO. XD

Broadcasting Camp Rant #4

Broadcast Kid J: Hey! Look! That's my signature angle!
Me: Uuuuuhhhh lol. No. That's just you zooming in on two players with the ball.
Me: Everyone does that.

Broadcasting Camp Rant #2

rawr :(( you know what is SO ANNOYING? Broadcast camp. Kids. And their veerry unprofessionalism. ugh 2 the YELLING. and oh my goo you know what else? The criticizing your own team. No, not your team playing the game, but your broadcasting team. They say, "I don't know what our video person is doing. It's really screwed up." & "What the heck is going on with our video? It's not moving. This is dumb. They're not even following the ball." "You're terrible! Stop moving the camera!" and I'm like, "Shut upp! You have no idea how to do it yourself! You've never done it before and for the one person who has... you did it after I figured out what to do! In filming baseball it is a little (actually a lot) deifficult to figure out whether to follow the baseball or the runner! oh my gosh... argh!" & I know they're just campers and they're learning but it gets to be annoying after a while so I have to write it out like this so I feel better. :) And so I'm not as grumpy.

(from my phone)

Broadcasting Camp Rant #1

ugh kids are so full of themselves when they think they know what they're doing. I don't care if you DO know what you're doing. You don't have to act like you know everything & be so full of it.

Yeahhh...ummm. It's one o'clock in the morning.

Yeahh.. I don't really want to go to sleep because I don't really feel like I have anything to sleep for. I don't have anything much important to do tomorrow. I don't have to get up in the morning. Sleep isn't happening yet. I don't really feel that there is anything to sleep for.

I mean, who's going to be there to talk to tomorrow?
The same people.

Of course, I adore all of them...but ... There's something that I'm missing.

And anyone observant could probably figure it out.

I just don't have much of a reason to sleep right now.

Not much of a reason or two.

But I'm going to sleep soon.

Plus, if I don't go pretty soon I'll start to get hungry and that's always uncomfortable...