Magpie tales #102

The photo (sorry. I'm doing this on my iPad)


Angry.
Crazy.
Wild.
Frustrated.
Immensely oblivious to that which surrounds.
Except for overwhelming feelings of
hatred, but not so harsh
depression, but not so deep
happiness, but not so joyful
and calamity, but not so calm.
Rancor of sounds and noises
Rancor of colors and sights
Rancor of listeners and talkers
Rancor of claims of "love at first sight"
In a sort of a "I'm a vampire; I bite"
Sort of way.
Scared.
Anxious.
Disgusted.
Full of greed.
Crazy.
Wild.
Angry.
Scattered.
Done.

MAGPIE #100 WOOOO!!!!

La Photographía/The Photo

Oh My Gosh.
A breath.
A breath and a next breath underwater.
That's like in my dreams.
In my dreams I can breathe underwater.
I was scared at first, especially the first time.
But then I realized that it was just a dream.
And that I would be kept safe because my Creator would not let me drown.
Even in my own tears,
I would not drown.
Even outside of the dream,
and inside of the real-life, for-real life,
I realized that He would not
He will not
He never shall
let me drown.

Underwater is like my depression was.
Scary.
Pressure.
What if I am lost forever in this depth of depths of depths?
The sea goes on forever,
but I will not.
But He does.

Why couldn't Adam and Eve just stay in the freaking garden.
Why couldn't they just do what He asked?

isn't it interesting how she's already underwater but it seems like only part of her is wet?

I was really scared when I was depressed.
I was really just numb to it all.
In a pressure that was there all the time.
Depressing. Pressing in on me. Pressure.

Maybe the depressing. pressing in on me. pressure will be gone forever for me now?

I hopes so.

But in my dreams, I can breathe underwater.
And there is no pressure.
Just cool air that I squeeze from the water which surrounds me.
So I suppose there still is pressure?
But only a calm kind.

It's nice. In my dreams. It's dark. But it's light.
I just remember the dark.
But I just remember the nice.
The nice of being able to actually breathe for once.
Under Pressure.

Goodbye Depression Pressure Pressing In On Me.
Good morning Sunshine, just above the horizon and not e'en there when I wake up.
But I see you.
I see you, I tell you!
I see you in this photograph.
A million hundred thousand miles away
with a million hundred thousand things to say
and a million hundred thousand ways to explain.

And you are there, sunshine. You are always there.

Okay So OBVIOUSLY

I have obviously not done well AT ALL with keeping up with this 365 day challenge.

Seems it's just not for me.

now, don't get me wrong. I am totally finishing it.
Just not in 365 days probably -- LOL.

But issa okay. Y'all know me. I do things a little differently :))

Luv, peachz, chick grease, 3wigs. rock on fioozsh. <333

hAHA GUYS.

MY CAT IS MAKING NOISES IN HER SLEEP LIKE A MONKEY.

HAHA GUYS.

Song of the dayze

Ordinary Day by Vanessa Carlton

You Know You're Easily Sidetracked When... #2

You get distracted from your homework by the State Farm Insurance commercial two rooms away.

This is Me. You Know You're Sidetracked Easily When...

Gosh I am sidetracked so easily...

That I get distracted from my math homework by the games on my calculator.

Magpie #99

https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRNCI83R71I3twtVKUnxZ50EE-i5tFzV4ZLsGPsuk3g1cL6b1owRHwOdxhrPXTv-znBvZV0IcaedC1RS0CGSAHGIixRAnz070fXwjQlvvOFrI0p1ufq7y5_vNvZ5ZEPS8xLOALOcPhOIsa/s1600/friedlander+yul.jpg

Gray buildings
On the walls
Never thought they'd be anything at all
Until a man
Decided to dream a dream
Before his world broke
Down at the seams

There is a man
Who stands in iron glass
Takes care to look
At all whom pass

And I can only see the side of him
And I can only see
-of what he did-
Just the rim

And he can't see from his blank
Blank
Stare
That old men could be standing in their underwear
There

I don't know who he is
Or where he came from
Dunno if he was dumb
Or if he was young
Dunno if he was done
-for goodness sake-
Maybe he wasn't done

But he's still gone

I suppose

But there is he stands
Next to a great banner
-or sign-
Of
The King And I

And I wonder why
-if we are all so selfish-
Why he bothered with the King when there was already I?

Soooo another blog! Yes! I'm making one!

I know, I know, anyone would pobably be like, OH MY GOSH STOP MAKING BLOGS!

But (oh and sorry for the typos) this is really important to me, seeing as it affects me and not much is known about it. I've mentioned it before, this dermatillomania.

And people need to know about. I want them to know about it. It would make me happy to tell people about it. So keep your eyes and ears open, and if you ever need someone to talk to, just let me know, and I'll do my best helpfulness.

Website of the dayze

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_common_misconceptions