This is A Splurge Of Abnormality. My first blog. What is there to expect? More so, what is there NOT to expect? So...yeah.. this is definitely shorter than it was before. Big deal. Don't expect anything. But expect everything.
LOOKZ LIKE WE'VE GOT OURSELVES SUM VISIT'R!!!!
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ps. I started a 365 day challenge (here) forever and a day ago and hopefully one day I'll get back to it because that would be fun and pretty cool :). update: #3 has never been a problem lol but who knows...maybe one day it will be (>‿◠)✌
The song that makes me cry the easiest is Already There by LoneStart.
This great sadness associated with this song developed when I listened to it when my dad was in rehab for the first time. Now, if I just think about the song and the lyrics, I slightly tear up.
It's just... the thoughts that Dad was away from the rest of us that first time and that he wasn't able to come back for a while were really disappointing.
I always took for granted that my dad was there. I never thought he would be miles and miles and hours away at any point in time. His work never took him out of town so even though I didn't see him every night, I never thought of him as "far away". It was just normal. But, then, he wasn't even there if I needed him.
I could just relate so easily to every single word in the lyrics... and I still can.
I knew my dad was sad to be so far away and so were the rest of us.
"Daddy, when you comin' home?"
The fact that he could be "already there" was actually kind of overwhelming and all the overwhelming feelings I already had encompassing me at the time have stuck with that song throughout these past three years and they've never left.
Tomorrow... I will be going to many doctor's appointments. One for a physical in the early morning, one at the orthodontist, one with my therapist, and onnee with a person to get meds to help with my picking?? I guess that's the place mom is having me go to get meds for my anxiety issues. I, personally, didn't think any anxiety that I have is THAT bad and the thought of having to take medicine for it is just making me MORE anxious than I was before!
Picking my skin is NOT JUST BECAUSE OF ANXIETY. IT IS A HABIT.
GETTING MEDS FOR ANXIETY IS NOT GOING TO NECESSARILY KEEP ME FROM PICKING MY SKIN.
My goal was to stop picking.
My goal was not to brainwash my brain to keep myself from picking by the course of drugs.
I don't want to have to use external measures forced down my own throat to quit a habit that I could quit by myself.
I guess I just don't want to be dependent on a substance.
I really, really, really, don't want to be dependent on a substance.
I have my moments. The good and the bad.
I can be brave, but I can also get really really scared and consumed by the fear.
So when I'm talking to some people about insecurity and I seem totally sane but also seem like I don't necessarily think I am, they tell me because they've never seen me having a panic attack.
Some people would just walk away if they saw me having a panic attack, so it's probably good that they haven't.
But every thought and feeling of downness and negativity is completely avoidable, or so I believe with all of and every crevice of my heart.
Does that mean I'm going to always avoid negative thoughts?
But why not?
Because there's something strangely satisfying and comforting in being completely in touch and completely aware of every feeling and thought and everything in your mind.
As long as you don't stay there too long, it's okay.
If you do stay there too long, however, you will easily become stuck
and being stuck SUCKS.
It sucks a whole heck of a lot to tell you the truth.
When I talk to you...if I really enjoy you, or trust you, or probably just WANT to trust you (and I'd like to trust everybody), or if I'm just talking to you and I get brave (which could happen at any moment), there will come a point at which I share each and every one of my thoughts. At that point, I am simply, and inexplicably unsimply, sharing my thoughts and it is up to you whether or not you care or agree. I do not state thoughts to be right, but to share with you the innards of my brain and mind that you may not get to see otherwise. I like to be open. :)
I believe in nice people. I believe in kind souls. I believe in God the Father, Creator of Heaven and Earth, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, and that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal, everlasting life. I believe in love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe in myself (most of the time, if not usually, if not at least sometimes). I believe in fairytales. I believe in Disney and don't think they messed up any child's mind at all by pretending that reality is something it's not. I believe in my friends, my boyfriend, my family, and all people (most of the time, if not usually). I believe in cute dogs. And I believe in my capabilities. I believe in soul mates. I believe in belief and faith. I believe in MUSIC. I believe in my mind (most of the time, if not usually). I believe in MY WRITING. <3 I believe in a lot of things, to put it simply and inexplicably unsimply. <3
lol so I'm going to start this again XD
It's summer and I haven't done this since before Christmas break.
This quote: "People are going to want you, need you, exceed you, take you, play you, rate you, and break you, but that's what makes you."
From my friend Benji: To stay positive and that things are going to be okay.
From tumblr: To never start cutting because it's extremely hard to stop.
From karate: Quitters never win and winners never quit.
From tumblr and other inspirations: To never judge other people by what they do or say or how they seem. To never be mean for no reason because it just hurts and no good comes out of it. To never tell somebody to "go and die" because they might actually do it. To always be there for people, especially yourself.
Broadcast Kid W: This video SUCKS
Me: Okay, kid, why don't YOU do it and I'll criticize every little thing you do that isn't perfect. Oh, and REMEMBER we only have ONE, SMALL, CHEAP (well, as video cameras go) video camera for the whoooooooolllleee baseball field.
Me: oh & btw.. You're going to fail.
rawr :(( you know what is SO ANNOYING? Broadcast camp. Kids. And their veerry unprofessionalism. ugh 2 the YELLING. and oh my goo you know what else? The criticizing your own team. No, not your team playing the game, but your broadcasting team. They say, "I don't know what our video person is doing. It's really screwed up." & "What the heck is going on with our video? It's not moving. This is dumb. They're not even following the ball." "You're terrible! Stop moving the camera!" and I'm like, "Shut upp! You have no idea how to do it yourself! You've never done it before and for the one person who has... you did it after I figured out what to do! In filming baseball it is a little (actually a lot) deifficult to figure out whether to follow the baseball or the runner! oh my gosh... argh!" & I know they're just campers and they're learning but it gets to be annoying after a while so I have to write it out like this so I feel better. :) And so I'm not as grumpy.
Apparently I'm not going to get to sleep outside tonight because it's already getting dark and I probably can't set up a tent in the dark and tomorrow is going to be Monday and I haven't run yet and I really need to and tomorrow I have swim team and tomorrow I'll only have 14ish days left until I go out of the country and I haven't seen any of my friends in over a week and I miss them and I want to see my boyfriend before I leave and he's going to be in boy scout camp all week and I'm not sleeping outside tonight and I really really really really really really really really wanted to.
The best thing I could have had at 15 was for my house to less big. (but still the same house) That way, I wouldn't get up in my room and not want to walk all the way downstairs to get something to eat at any given moment oh shoot I forgot to take my steroids and antibiotic okay bye <3 I love you :D
The best asks, ever :)
1: What eye color do you find sexiest?
Uurrrhhmmm...idk....eehhh... Brown, I suppose XD
2: White, milk, or dark chocolate mocha?
Lol neither! But if I HAD TO...dark chocolate..
3: If you could get a Sharpie tattoo on your back, what would it be?
Oooooooooohhhhh.... Like....a big tiger face...growling. ^_^
4: Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it?
Um.. Big. And yes. :)
5: Your favorite adult as a child? (and not your parents, if they were your favorite)
Ooohhh... My second and fourth grade teachers.. But especially Mr. Rogers from Mr. Rogers' Neighborhood
6: What kind of smoothie sounds really good right now?
Banana strawberry. :)) yumm
7: Most embarrassing moment from your elementary school years?
Farting in front of people.
8: Most embarrassing moment from your middle school years?
Making a joke about "asinus infection" on a chat with the guy I liked (/was possibly dating if I remember correctly) and one of my friends back then...I didn't realize "asinus" means "butt" in Latin... >///>
9: Most embarrassing moment from your high school years?
Walking in on a teacher meeting without knocking.. But that wasn't too bad.
10: Pirates or ninjas? Why?
NINJAS!! Because they're hot! LOL just kidding.... But theyre all so...ninja-y and know Kung fu and karate and martial arts and CAN BE MAGICAL so they TOTALLY beat parrots and cannonballs. XD
11: Have you ever climbed a tree more than twenty feet off the ground?
12: Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set?
Yes! And not excited...unless I happened to be out with friends and already excited. I have a swing set at home so it's normal for me to see a swing set.
13: If you could have any pet in the world, illegal or not, what would you get?
Ummmm.... A tiger just like Jasmine's out of Aladdin!...haha I've mentioned tigers twice ... And they're not even my favorite animal or anything. Or maybe an alpaca? Nah. A giraffe? ...nah... A penguin!
14: What's your most favorite part of your body?
My legs ^_^ or my face XD or my hair. :)) I like my arms a lot too. <3
15: What's your most favorite part of your personality?
That I try to be kind to everybody and stick hard to my morals.
16: Madonna or Lady Gaga? Neither? Both? Who cares?
Both! But WHO CARES if their music is similar? Cat fights are so lame. It's just music. There's only so many ways to sing the notes, you know.
17: Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through?
Yes! And the Puppy Bowl. ;D
18: Have you ever watched any major sporting event drunk?
Nope. Never been drunk either. I've never drunk alcohol, for that matter.
19: What's the most delicious food you've ever eaten in your life?
20: Margarine or butter? Which did you grow up with?
Butter. And butter.
21: Whole, skim, 1%, or 2% milk? (Did you know they make 1 1/2% milk?)
WHOLE IS YUMMEH. lol yes...I do know that...
22: Which continents have you been on?
North America annnnddd...I think that's it. Lol
23: Do you get motion sickness? Any horror stories?
Occasionally, if it's really bad...but no.
24: Backpacks or satchels?
25: Would you wear a rainbow jacket? A neon yellow sweater? Checkered pants?
YES OMYGOO YES. YES. YES. Oh my goo they all sound so fun. ^_^
26: What was your favorite cartoon growing up?
Ummm... OH! Well, I had a few and I can't remember all of them..:: Tarzan...yeah we'll go with that.
27: If you had to have a cow or a pig, which would you take? Why?
A cow! Because then we could get free milk!
28: If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be?
....hmmm...Hong Kong? Only a super clean one? That seems like it would be pretty interesting.
29: Longest plane ride you've ever been on?
12ish hours, probably.
30: The latest you've ever slept?
Until 4:30 in the afternoon I think!
31: Would you buy a sweater covered in kitten pictures? Would you wear it if someone gave it you for free?
YES & YES lol if I liked the first and definitely (especially if they asked me to) with the second
32: Do you pick at scabs?
33: Favorite kind of bean? Kidney? Black? Pinto?
Hmmm....I like kidney beans a lot :)
34: How far can you throw a baseball?
Probably less than a hundred yards...
35: If you had to move to another country, where would you move?
Hmmmm..... Italy I guess. That's really far away... Actually, England.
36: Have you ever eaten Ethiopian food? Vietnamese? Korean? Nepalese? How was it?
Yes and it was actually really good. No. No. No. :)
37: Small, liberal arts school or public university? Why?
Hmmmm public university. Because I go to a private school and there would bbe so many possibilities. I think it would be a fantastic adventure. <3
38: A relationship with love or one with sex?
LOVE, always. <3. Abstinence until marriage, baby. ;D
39: Do you eat enough vegetables?
Probably not lol
40: Do you like horror movies? How about thrillers?
Yes and yes but I'd usually rather watch something else and usually do.
41: Would you scratch a crotch itch in public?
If no one was looking. XD
42: Do you swear in front of your parents?
hah, no. I don't swear in front of anyone except myself 99.99% of the time and I don't even swear when I'm by myself about 99% of the time, I'd say, unless it's in a song. ;) but nothing really big like the f-word
43: Coolest thing you've ever been for Halloween?
Hmmm.... Medusa was pretty cool but I think I gotta go with Supergirl
44: If you could change your natural hair color, would you? To what?
Nah, I wouldn't. But I would definitely chalk the ends different colors sometime for fun. :))
45: Do you want to get married? Have kids?
Yes. And yes. :))
46: Do you use a reusable water bottle? If not, you should.
Sometimes. Lol okay. ^_^
47: City or nature person?
Both. I'm in love with both. :))
48: Have you ever used something other than "makeup" as makeup? (Like paint? Markers?)
49: Can you walk well in high heels? Even if you're a guy?
50: Post 5 awesome things about yourself. BRAG AWAY!
1. I have a black belt in karate!!!
2. My friends really respect me and think I'm super nice. XD
3. I'm a really awesome singer (lol especially when I'm by myself)
4. I cut, like, 15 seconds off of the times (in total) for my races in track this year.
5. I've never cut and I've never considered suicide for myself and the plan is to never consider it because both of those things ARE NOT options for me. :DD
Yeahh.. I don't really want to go to sleep because I don't really feel like I have anything to sleep for. I don't have anything much important to do tomorrow. I don't have to get up in the morning. Sleep isn't happening yet. I don't really feel that there is anything to sleep for.
I mean, who's going to be there to talk to tomorrow?
The same people.
Of course, I adore all of them...but ... There's something that I'm missing.
And anyone observant could probably figure it out.
I just don't have much of a reason to sleep right now.
Not much of a reason or two.
But I'm going to sleep soon.
Plus, if I don't go pretty soon I'll start to get hungry and that's always uncomfortable...
Oh my goo.... I have not done this in SOO TOO LOONG.
WATERFALL BY TLC
I loooovveee this song... It's amazing. ^_^ I haven't listened to the whole thing recently...just heard part of it on the radio, though, and I love it. It's just... such a good song. It really flows, like water, which the song is about so it makes sense.
When I share a blog with someone...there's always the fear...that they'll see something they don't like...and it drives them away. Or anything that drives them away. And I love to share, but sometimes it's hard. You know?
Just..thinking about that. Hook is sleeping in my room...and I am on the bed.
And the rest is still unread.
Because it's future, see?
GAH YOU INTERRUPTED MY BEAUTIFUL POETRY.
.. It's okay. :)
It's time to splurge the abnormality.
Irony, no? Exactly. It's not irony.
So so sorry ... This is definitely considerable as randomness..moving along. :)<3kitty
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