#219
Tomorrow... I will be going to many doctor's appointments. One for a physical in the early morning, one at the orthodontist, one with my therapist, and onnee with a person to get meds to help with my picking?? I guess that's the place mom is having me go to get meds for my anxiety issues. I, personally, didn't think any anxiety that I have is THAT bad and the thought of having to take medicine for it is just making me MORE anxious than I was before!
Picking my skin is NOT JUST BECAUSE OF ANXIETY. IT IS A HABIT.
UGH.
GETTING MEDS FOR ANXIETY IS NOT GOING TO NECESSARILY KEEP ME FROM PICKING MY SKIN.
My goal was to stop picking.
My goal was not to brainwash my brain to keep myself from picking by the course of drugs.
I don't want to have to use external measures forced down my own throat to quit a habit that I could quit by myself.
I guess I just don't want to be dependent on a substance.
I really, really, really, don't want to be dependent on a substance.
Picking my skin is NOT JUST BECAUSE OF ANXIETY. IT IS A HABIT.
UGH.
GETTING MEDS FOR ANXIETY IS NOT GOING TO NECESSARILY KEEP ME FROM PICKING MY SKIN.
My goal was to stop picking.
My goal was not to brainwash my brain to keep myself from picking by the course of drugs.
I don't want to have to use external measures forced down my own throat to quit a habit that I could quit by myself.
I guess I just don't want to be dependent on a substance.
I really, really, really, don't want to be dependent on a substance.
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