11/29/11 • Day 3: what you think your reason for being here is

I think my reason for being here is to live the life I have imagined.

It is to follow my dreams, and not only follow them..but to be a certain "some people":

 Some people follow their dreams, others hunt them down and beat them mercilessly into submission.   Kendall, Neil


I am here to spread the Glory of God through my actions, words, and decisions. I am to be a messenger, server, and caregiver in the name of God. And I am. It is how, who, and why I am.


I am here to float my own boat while I still have a boat to float.
I only get to live once, I am scared of dying, I see no way for me to get past that...but I think I live to not be afraid of dying.

I am on Earth because this is where I was placed.
I feel I am here to spread joy and love and FEELINGS. All feeling. All of them.

I am here to spread the news of my Creator, of my life, of my learnings and teachings (from me but mostly other people ^_^), of my dreams, of my passions, of my loves, and of my everythings and everything elses.

I am here for you. I am here for me. I am here for the world.
I am here to leave a mark. At least...leaving a mark is what I hope I'm here for.

Personally, I believe my ultimate reason for being here is because God wants me here. If God didn't want me here, He wouldn't have made me here, He wouldn't have placed me here, and I just wouldn't be here. Simple as that.

I am here to live my own life.

[quote from:     http://quotationsbook.com/quote/11468/      ]

11/28/11 (finished 11/29/11) • Day 2: something that's illegal but you think it should be legal

Ummm... I'm really not sure. They should definitely KEEP marijuana ILLEGAL. Some people will get it no matter what, but if it's illegal, less people can get to it.

Noow...for the question at hand...

I had to research a little ^__^

(   http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060907204018AA9fSUz    )

"Joe K" on answers.yahoo.com answered, "It is illegal to work 'off the clock' (voluntarily or not) if you are an hourly employee even though it might be the ethical thing to do in order to help the company progress forward."


I think that should be legal if it's voluntarily. Plus, what if it's, like, a small business or something? That would be really important! 

11/27/11 • Day 1: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself

I hope: To stop tearing at my nails and the skin around my nails. To let my nails grow out. That I'll let my friend who won't be with us next year (going to a Carolina I think?) know exactly how much he means to me (THAT'S A LOT [CA.DB. or Sherlock or Holmes?]. To finish one of my stories. To win a prize from all those sweepstakes I enter. To get more money. To at least almost have a boyfriend lol (only a part of me). To meet a huge role model (anyone). To see Landon McIntyre again
TBC

...continuing...from tumblr to blogger :)

So all of the above...plus,

I hope: To fix my dermatillomania. That all my friends will know that I really do care about them. To stop feeling so stressed. To waste my time a lot less :))).

I dream: Of having a boyfriend (only a part of me, again ^_^). Of meeting my role models. Of singing in front of large crowds. Of going to Snowmass, Colorado...I miss it soo much....  .  In color. Of meeting and spending a day with the Harry Potter cast. Of wonderful things and places where the only real fear is the adventure out of books that can be beat by the will of the good in around typically 300 pages. Of starring in a movie. Of meeting all my Disney role models...and singing with them...

I plan: To sell something to get money to help my family/to make me happy. To stop the peeling-feeling. To get good grades on my midterms and final exams. To go to Italy and Spain this summer with SeñorB, The Worm, Scarbs, SñradiffB, a couple other teachers...and all those other people. To find a mission trip to go on. To wing it.

You know me. I won't give you my face :) I promise I'm smiling. 

III'MMMM BAAAACCCKK!!!

And going to start a 365 day challenge pretty soon, just so I can keep going on here. :) I got a tumblr recently and that's where I've found quite a few challenges. I decided since I really owe a lot more to my blogger account...and because the splurge is really only a trickle nowadays...and there is really nothing exciting, new, or abnormal from what usually happens, that I would get into it here.

Plus, I just figured out (I have this problem FYI...) what my most destructive problem is called! Dermatillomania.

I sense that it's a fairly mild case...but my symptoms fall into 3 or 4 of the different categories I saw on a certain page. And this, this calling what I do symptoms and this giving it a scientific name, is not to lessen the amount of damage it causes or to lessen it's importance, but to prove it as a more substantial and real problem.

You may formerly have seen me write of it as the "peeling-feeling" because, yes, it's shaming and I don't want people to know. It makes me relieved that we are generally good at hiding it because I was kind of wondering if it was only in my head how well I was hiding it or if people really saw.

Yeah, I've tried to stop. No, I'm not trying to hurt myself. Yes, everything I've read thus far fits with me.
It's probably all part of my sensory integration.
It said that doctors don't know much about Dermatillomania because, as we are very good at hiding it, we don't tend to tell people about it. This has inspired me to let my counselor know if this....even as it's on my heels.

Yeah, I peel my skin. Yeah, I want to stop.

YEAH, I'm still the same Kitty, Kelsey, Ana, that you've always known, loved (or hated ^_^), and followed on this blog and others.

Yeah, I just found another title for myself. One under the label, Dermatillomania.

Let's fix this.

What People Can Do Today Never Ceases To Amaze Me

So...first we have the Zombie Boy. Rick from Vancouver ring a bell?? Anyways, this amazes me in a not-so-good-way ... but to each his own I guess?? [But, yes, guys you have to remember REMEMBER that this is a real guy with real dreams and if this is his passion (which it is) he has every right to follow it]::

yeah. they're real tattoos...

And then we have this AMAZINNG GROUP OF PEOPLE [in my book]!!! Who have made a Hogwarts rock song collaboration YO. But the part that amazes me???>


It's on iTunes. Yeayah. For $0.99. NINETY NINE CENTS. 


Run and Tell THAT.

My inner fan-girl just came out.


...Not that she does so well at hiding anyways.... 

I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!

That's, like, a half step towards the full step of subscribing to your channels....all I gotta do is look at a couple more and I'm sure...it will soo work out for me. ^_^

(pic from: http://photos.bizarremag.com/images/front_picture_library_UK/dir_25/bizarre_magazine_12978_7.jpg)

(vid from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=iv&src_vid=6erbmnuI_nc&v=xjUb4Pr2HnY&annotation_id=annotation_656389)