Magpie 223

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Magpie Tales (223)

*note: this may have been the first time I came up with the poem without looking at the picture immediately before or while writing it.... I was supposed to be trying to sleep and the thoughts just hit me and I made myself write it down instead of letting them be lost in my brain.

because then they'd be gone from the concrete world forever.

This is exactly how it was written out on my iPhone.. 11:21 pm June 13, 2014 and exactly how it is laid out, by whatever chance, in my "Notes" app (fixed just a couple typos).

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Tonight

I really don't want to fall asleep

Hugging my pillow

Nothing is good for that kind of thing

That kind of hugging thing

It's like a broken record the tape

slung out the voices eternally set to

a shriek

It dulled my head

And I think

I know I pushed it

Kept pushing it

Saying it was beautiful music

And now I am here

After each push the tap lasts for a 

little longer

The recording still holds its face

together for a couple more months

And what if this is the final tear

And I've finally ripped the present

Torn the music apart

It's gone

-June 13, 2014. 11: 21 pm.

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Two Songs... Nope, Now Make That Three

No Surprise by Daughtry - part of it is just perfect for how I felt about breaking up with Sir Some Guy

Your Love Is A Song by Switchfoot - I just... love love love this song. I guess I don't know exactly who I'm singing it for anymore.. I guess.. Yeah, probably still Sir Some Guy, but not to be singing that it still is now. But that's okay because it was and I can still feel it. It just doesn't affect me in the way it used to.

Which is fine.

Sad, but fine.

When A Heart Breaks by Ben Rector - Yes, Ben Rector. Yes. And this one is for them all.  It's for all my friends: Sir Some Guy, Lexbri, Chappers, and my other friends who have been through heartbreak of any sort whether or not I've noticed it as much as these past three (except the fictional kind ;) I know how important that is to people, yes. I really do. But this song just ain't for you from my mind). One of my favorite lines is "it isn't easy. It isn't clear. And you don't need Jesus 'til you're here." That's the part that really speaks to me, for me and also for Sir Some Guy...since I think we're the only two out of that (at least the ones I can think of off the top of my head) who actually believe in Jesus and go to Church and stuff. Another favorite is "I know the pain of a heartbreak." For me, when I sing it (and when I don't), it completely speaks to me for all of them + me. Another favorite part is, "I don't have answers and neither do you. I know the pain of a heartbreak." Right now for me, this is especially directed towards Lexbri since she recently went through a breakup and it's been hard on her (well, duh, it'd be hard on anyone. And on the off chance that she's reading this...: I want you to know that there is not time frame by which you "should be over him". That's really silly. Everyone is different and if you're not over him as much as you think you should be in the next day, week, or six months, that's okay! Heck, I wasn't absolutely 100% over him until... four months later (when I woke up from a dream about it all in the beginning of summer and realized I wanted nothing to do with him xD It was kind of amusing...as if it were straight out of a movie. I made myself sit right up and everything directly after I woke up and repeat it out loud. "Wow. I'm actually completely, 100% over him!" and I don't think I said this out loud but I remember thinking, "Wow...I thought I was already over him," but I really don't think I had been up until that point). A similar set of phrases to the last one I mentioned, "I don't need answers. I just need some peace. I just need someone who could help me get some sleep, who could help me get some sleep." is also one of my favorites. And I think I have that. Lexbri, Chappers, and others definitely fall into that category. Sir Some Guy and I are still friends and I could still tell him probably close to as many personal things as before, but the only thing that "could help me get some sleep" about him is my content feelings with the fact that we are as close as we are, even if maybe it doesn't seem like anything in comparison to what we had before.

Fine, here's another one that just came up a few minutes ago because my Pandora is playing while I'm writing this and while I'm writing about songs that have been speaking to me recently, I might as well mention these other two. First:

A Drop In The Ocean by Ron Pope - Chappers. This has always been for Chappers, but not from my point of view for him. When he really liked one of our other friends, and I listened to this song, I immediately thought of him and how this is probably how he was feeling and how much I hoped things would work out between them. Maybe it didn't work out the way Chappers (or I) was thinking of, but it worked. (not that I necessarily thought they would get together...I really had no sufficient knowledge on it. I just knew that he was unhappy to be in the friendzone and I wanted him to be happy. If I ever put someone in the friendzone who despises it as much as he does... akdlfajsdkA I WILL EAT SOMETHING IN PURE RAGE. OR JUST BE RAGEFUL IN PURE RAGE. ugh.-_-.)

Second:

The Beat by Ben Rector - And then there's The Beat by Ben Rector (I just love his music, especially from his album, "Into The Morning".) It's perfect, I think, for any of my friends: Chappers, Bisael, Sherlock, Lexbri, the rest of them that I can't list right now because I need to go eat ASAP... BUT IT'S JUST FOR "ALL OF YE", my dear friends. And it's just a very "forward-motion", moving song to me. Moving in the way "I Dare You To Move" by Switchfoot is. It's one of those songs that gets inside of me and dares me to move. It has a great upbeat tone, too, which makes it also different from "I Dare You To Move".

In Addition....

Rocketship by Shane Harper - I also love this song. I guess I'm putting it on here mostly because it's got a great beat and I love the lyrics and the beat and I found it fairly recently and discovered Mr. Shane Harper recently. It's just a great upbeat song about love...instead of another one of those sad ones asking "do you love me or are you going to break my heart are you going to make me cry?" it's happy and cute and probably how I would feel if I fell in love again and I love it. Shy but wondering and needing to know...except idk because it's not like this song is speaking to me about anyone, I just love it.

Okay, well, that's a wrap.

I also will forever-love "Never Say Never" by the Fray. Beautiful, beautiful song. You should really look up the lyrics and I love singing it.

-Love, Peaches, Chicken Greases. Rock On.\m/-

What People Can Do Today Never Ceases To Amaze Me

So...first we have the Zombie Boy. Rick from Vancouver ring a bell?? Anyways, this amazes me in a not-so-good-way ... but to each his own I guess?? [But, yes, guys you have to remember REMEMBER that this is a real guy with real dreams and if this is his passion (which it is) he has every right to follow it]::

yeah. they're real tattoos...

And then we have this AMAZINNG GROUP OF PEOPLE [in my book]!!! Who have made a Hogwarts rock song collaboration YO. But the part that amazes me???>


It's on iTunes. Yeayah. For $0.99. NINETY NINE CENTS. 


Run and Tell THAT.

My inner fan-girl just came out.


...Not that she does so well at hiding anyways.... 

I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!

That's, like, a half step towards the full step of subscribing to your channels....all I gotta do is look at a couple more and I'm sure...it will soo work out for me. ^_^

(pic from: http://photos.bizarremag.com/images/front_picture_library_UK/dir_25/bizarre_magazine_12978_7.jpg)

(vid from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=iv&src_vid=6erbmnuI_nc&v=xjUb4Pr2HnY&annotation_id=annotation_656389)

yayay! another random music survey! There will be repeats...I don't think I have enough songs LOL

Put ur music on shuffle and write down the song! No cheating (skipping)!

Yourself
My name should be...
(first answer that I thought was really good: Barco de Papel by Gustavo Galindo)But I started over sooo: This City by Patrick Stump (lol)

I think I am...
Got It All (This Can't Be Living Now) by Portugal. The Man. (yeah, I guess in some ways)

My thoughts are generally about....
Beach by Peter Wolf Crier (yeah, when I'm on tumblr. The beach pix cheer me up)

Others see me as...
Dare You To Move by Switchfoot. (I guess so. Especially those who were in my English class last year. I love you D-Sia!

I dress like...
Double Trouble by Jack and White (yes! I see it! haha!)

My favorite thing to say is...
Young Blood by The Naked and Famous (I LOVE THIS SONG!! I'M SO GLAD I PUT IT ON MY IPAD!! I guess you could translate that to I love to say that we're still young)

My room has...
Here It Goes Again by OkGo (ditto with previous caps LOL. My room is def a here it goes again zone with getting messy. Just when I think I have it under control, just when I think I've got it all, just when I'm on a roll, ....it gets messy lol)

My screen name has to do with...
Everybody's Cried At Once by the Naked Brothers Band (yes! in a way! the single thing...it was post-being a girlfriend. So in a way, yes. I DO love this song.)

I love to...
Imagine by John Lennon. (Oh yesss!!! No other words)

During the summer, I...
Morning Thought by Dale Earnhardt Jr. Jr. (I guess so...haha when I get up. Those nice summer morning thoughts)

If I had a duck I would name her...
Make A Move by Icon For Hire (lol or the lead singers name)

Friends and Family
My best friend is...
Slide by the GooGoo Dolls (let me go find a best friend while I try to figure this out..lol...but really, I think it's a good description for any of my friends and my relationships with them)

When hanging out with my friends, we like to...
Headlong Into The Abyss by We Are Augustines. (YeS!!! I need to keep up with them! I forgot about them!! :((( Yes. My friens and I, we like to go headlong into the abyss. don't quite get it? Especially if you know me? Go listen to it. I LOVE these guys)

During Christmas, my family and I are...
Everywhere by Michelle Branch (yep. And the spirit of Christmas is everywhere too. It's awesome)

I think my mom is...
Bitter Sweet Symphony by The Verve. (yeah, I think she's gotten kinnnnda bitter, but she's still sweet as ever. Who wouldn't be bitter after all the things she's been through??)

But she thinks that I think she's...
Invisible by Skylar Grey (yes. she thinks no one listens to her)

My pet's always acting like...
Prayin' For Daylight by the Rascal Flatts. (haha yesss. My dog Hook just wants to be with people and is MISERABLE and YELLS if he isn't...and itsy cries in her kennel. and smudge always talks (both cats))

The one friend I can't stand is...
Bluebird by Christina Perri. (naaahh...I love this song...but I guess, yeah, I don't like flighty friends even though that isn't what this song is about. I love this song. ^_^)

My friends and I usually talk about...
For 12 by Other Lives (I've never really listened to this song...but we do talk about things for our other friends ^_^ so yes?) Maybe I'll come to this later and recheck it and say yes or no on stuff.)

I really think that my grandma has a disease called...
I've Got A Question by the Naked Brothers Band (haha yes. because she gets so confused recently. ^_^ So she asks a lot of questions, including repeated questions)

Relationships
My crush/boyfriend/girlfriend is...
The Thought Of Losing You by Dredg. (yes. I don't have a crush, but I regret something I did to a friend of mine 2 years ago, and I really have been thinking about it. "After all this pain" I really don't want to lose him! I really want to let you know how sorry I am, and how happy it makes me that we're still friends because I really hurt you. But I still didn't lose you!)

(S)He treats me like...
Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C (idk how I would make the 1st part fit...maybe that we have graduated from multiple stages in our friendship. we have learned over and over that "things will never be the same" "excited" "scared" YES. Also, kind of the friends forever part. however long forever is willing to take us. ^_^)

When we're alone, I want to...
Eventually by the Naked Brothers Band (I guess...I just want to be with him alone eventually and see if our past comes up so I can tell him that I'm so so so sorry. And I know I told him that I would never keep something from him like that with another person, but I just want to let him know that I am sooo sorry that I was such an awful friend. And it's been bugging me for TWO YEARS and I JUST wanted to tell him. Again."And the sun will find us all eventually, eventually.")

We're always talking about...
Maybe by Sick Puppies. (no. but maybe in our heads. Maybe is definitely in my head. But only maybe. Is it in your head too??? "Maybe I'm just out of touch. Maybe I've just had enough. Maybe it's time to change." What do you think?? I think we could. Maybe not as bf/gf necessarily, but as friends. To let each other know how we feel. it's a tiny tiny change. "maybe it's hopeless. maybe i should just give up. WHAT IF I CAN'T TRUST MYSELF? [to not hurt you] WHAT IF I JUST NEED SOME HELP? [that's fine with me] maybe it's time to change.". ... I hope you'll walk with me...)

(S)He looks like a...
Madre Naturaleza by Andrea Echeverri (translation: something like "natural mother" ...hmmm...he's natural. I think ?? but not a mother. maybe protective of some things, but isn't everybody??)

To be honest, I just want to...with him/her -
Holy Holy by Wye Oak (nope. can't make it fit. maybe just get the holy holy truth out?? so "there is no other story".)

And their friends are so...
What A Little Bit Of Love Can Do by Jeff Bridges (I guess...I do think they love him in a way. Plus, I am his friend...sooo...idk. anyhow. nevertheless "it's amazing what a little bit of love can do" especially to make someone feel happy)

But that's okay, cuz I love him/her like ....
Hanging On by Active Child (yeahhh...i'm definitely hanging on to the past)

Our first kiss was/will be like...
ALERT: I NEVER SAID WE WOULD KISS>>> geez! I don't have a crush on him...anyways:
If You Can Make It Through The Rain by the Naked Brothers. (but...yes! "If you can make it through the rain, you can make it through the sun. So hold on. We'll see what happens to me. We'll see what happens to you and me.")

Even though (s)he acts..I still lust after him/her...
The Beat Goes On by Beady Eye
(no. I don't lust after him. But his beat definitely goes on. He's awesome. ^_^)

His/Her pet name would be.....
Black Water Falls by The War On Drugs (okaaaayyyy this is WAYYYY past awkward now. But that is a good nickname for him...maybe? A good song, I think.)

(S)He would call me...
Never Say Never by Justin Bieber ft. Jaden Smith. (haha he could and it would make sense...I guess. except for the fact that i DID say "never" in all that hurt. But then I said "never" again in the making it right....or the try to "make it right". And dude, I do so much stuff, it's hard to say never. lol. especially when I'm in it.)

And together, we will have a life full of...
Happy Day by Tim Hughes. (just add an 's' to that, and you're good to go. ^_^)

School
School makes me want to...
Qué Sería by Francisca Valenzuela (direct translate: 'what would'...maybe it means 'what would it be'?? anyhow, that's a yes.)

The only reason I go is to...
Still Got Tonight by Matthew Morrison (yes. that's a good reason. one of the best fitting ones so far.)

My teachers look like...
My Baby's Tellin' Lies by Keb' Mo' (lol I HOPE they're not that miserable!!)

And they act like...
Gold Mine by Breanne Düren (sure...yeah. their classes are gold mines for tests, quizzes, homework, and the overall grade ^_^)

But it doesn't bother me, because I'm going to say...
Stupid Boy by Keith Urban (haha but not at my female teachers. ^_^ I LOVE KEITH URBAN!!!!)

Homework can go suck a...
Go Tell Everybody by The Horrible Crowes (that means you can NOT go tell everybody about you, you homework!! So we won't have homework! lol)

Math makes me want to...
Barco de Papel by Gustavo Galindo (translation: paper boat/ship. yes. jump into a dreamy paper boat. there is always a chance of drowning lol)

For lunch, I eat...
Dance Forever by Allstar Weekend (GREAT SONG!!! yes, I try to eat enough so I'm enough shape/healthy enough to dance 'forever'.)

If the day was any longer, I would...
ÜBerlin by R.E.M. (I really don't know how to make this work)

The bus smells like a...
Breathe In Breathe Out by Mat Kearney (great song first of all>> buuutt...I don't go in a bus. So...on the way to school. Yes I breathe in and breathe out. For my friends. For me. So maybe I won't get stressed because "I fall down sometimes". "Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes". yes. listen to this!! "because everything keeps moving on" and we have to "hold on tight"

And cheerleaders are annoying as...
Red, Red Wine by UB40 (which means they are and are not. I, personally don't think they're annoying as cheerleaders. I don't know any annoying people, really, especially ones that are cheerleaders. and i like this song, it's def not annoying. there's my answer. ^_^)

Guidance counselors are for...
Beneath The Fire by Evaline. (yes they are for when I am underneath the fire)

To sum it up, school is a big, fat....
Blessed Be Your Name by Matt Redman (yes, actually. Blessed Be Your Name, God, for keeping us there, somehow, how you do. And blessed be my school for giving us that discount. For being SO SUPPORTIVE!!! YOU ARE AMAZING!! AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!

Future
I'm going to marry a...
Representing Memphis by Booker T. Jones ft. Matt Berninger and Sharon Jones. (sure. I could deal with marrying Memphis person. ^_^)

And have a kid. His/Her name will be...
[[toldja. i just started over for all my songs]]
Still Got Tonight by Matthew Morrison. (yeah, hon, you always got tonight. for tonight. for right now. for these "stolen seconds". Just saying, you'll be okay, and my heart goes out to you tonight. "One look in your eyes"

And (s)he will look like my...
My Baby's Tellin' Lies by Ked' Mo' (well, I kinda hope (s)he doesn't always look like a liar...but if you do, hon, that's okay, because I will still love you. And if I don't, show me this. Remind me.)

I'll have a pet...
The Thought Of Losing You by Dredg (the thought of losing a pet for my company is nonexistent lol)

My house will be located at...
Headlong Into The Abyss by We Are Augustines (hey, hon, listen to this too!! LOL right there along with my friends. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^.)

My husband/wife will have...
Imagine by John Lennon (yes. he. will!)

Every holiday we'll travel to...
Eventually by the Naked Brother's Band (even if we don't travel, remember that the sun will find us all eventually.)

Which will look like...
Slide by the GooGoo Dolls. (yes! there will be a slide!)

And have a really nice...
Bluebird by Christina Perri (yes. there will be bluebirds. And robins (now I have nostalgia for my lovely robin. "I'm looking for you")

Before I die, I want to...
Morning Thought by Dale Earnhardt Jr. Jr. (yes, have earlier and more Morning Thoughts)

My job will be a....
Make A Move by icon For Hire (I will have to make a move constantly and take risks. yes. I like that idea. even if it starts out "a little insane" lol)

Which will suck, because...
Double Trouble by Jack and White (yes. it could cause double trouble for me. Especially if bruthah is in the same trouble)

On my gravestone, it will say...
Black Water Falls by The War On Drugs (PLEASE OH P:EASE OH PLEASE PUT THIS ON MY GRAVESTONE!!)

Music
My favorite kind of music sounds like...
Never Say Never by Justin Bieber ft. Jaden Smith. (YEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!)

HIM is...
This City [Radio Edit] by Patrick Stump ft. Lupe Fiasco (idk what HIM is...)

All American Rejects remind me of...
Gold Mine by Breanne Düren (yes. they are a gold mine. great music. definitely to me, "opens up the skies and makes me feel alive")

Sean Paul makes me want to...
If You Can Make It Through The Rain by the Naked Brothers Band (don't know who he is. but sure,)

Without music, I would...
Qué Sería by Francisca Venazuela (yeah. What would it be without music?? What would I be?? There'd be that question, that's what I'd do. And there would be nothing else)

My favorite CD is played while I...
Barco de Papel by Gustavo Galindo (yes. it plays while i ride on the paper boat)

I dance like...
Everybody's Cried At least once by NBB (yes)

Music makes me feel...
Dance Forever by Allstar Weekend (YEEESSSSSS!!!!!) (make me alive!)

And makes me think about...
Madre Naturaleza by Andrea Echeverri (sure)

But mostly makes me want to act like a....
Young Blood by the Naked and Famous (yes. Why? Because I AM)

Basically, music is just...
(lol just in time as i'm on 2% left>>) Go Tell Everybody by The Horrible Crowes
(YES!! Go tell everybody about itt!!!)

PLAYLIST OF THE DAYZE YOZ!!

Dancing Crazy by Miranda Cosgrove (the music video most specifically LOL cute puppy. nice touch. Dude, that guy is so erhmm...goood lookin'!!^_^! (in the music vid) and she's cute (in a whole different way than the dudeLOL)I like where she flicks her eyes back and forth. that makes me smile. that she just had fun in that music vid. I LOVE IT!)

The Beat Goes On by Beady Eye (I feel like I've heard this somewhere...but I never heard it often. I wouldn't be surprised if it's one of those songs I heard when I was little, listening to B97.5 or something and it never came up again until recently but I absolutely loved it then)

Everywhere by Michelle Branch (A more recent song that I love. But I LOVE IT!! In 7th grade...the spring...I started drawing scenes for this song, representing the love I had just lost. They were actually pretty good...but I still need to finish them. The first is the best so far.)

Barco De Papel by Gustavo Galindo (Why do I have a song in total Spanish, you ask?? Well, because I thought it was pretty, it was free, and it didn't have any cuss words in it (I checked LOL). Plus, since I went to El Salv, I've been totally caught by the fact of Spanish singing. It just flows! It's so amazing! And...it helps on my Spanish in a fun way! ^_^ I Love you my dearest dear San Salvadorian amigos!!)

Dare You To Move (Did anyone ever tell you how amazing Apple is? And iTunes? And how the name "Genius" for the Genius thing on iTunes where it picks stuff you would like according to what you have is SO LEGIT!!??? Well, i just did, cuz it SO IS LEGIT! I heard this song a few days ago and wrote down the lyrics I heard and when I listened to it in my genius recommendations, I almost freaked because it was what I wanted AND it was on the 69 cent songs....hmmm...now idk if it was on both. but Genius is still amazing!)

Überlin by R.E.M. (I almost feel like I've heard this before, but I'm sure it was just the beat and I've heard songs by R.E.M. before. Not the song. But still, very good.)

Holy Holy by Wye Oak (A song I got free on iTunes but haven't listened to the words very closely yet. Haven't looked up the lyrics either. But I like the tune. Different, alternative, but I like that kind of stuff.)

Graduation (Friends Forever) Vitamin C (I totally thought about singing this for the talent show, and now I kind of wish I had for the smallish bear one (sorry, the term smallish bear is from the Brother Bear movies), just warned them that I was sick and didn't have any accompament (sp?) It is totally for all the people leaving next year. I'll probably record myself singing it and put it on YouTube for everyone to see. THIS IS FOR THE CLASS OF 2015 AS OF THE WHOLE OF MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! YOU ROCK AND I WILL MISS Y'ALL (who are leaving) SO MUCH!! THIS IS FOR YOU!!!)

Slide by The Goo Goo Dolls (This was def in Genius Recommendations. And I freaked when I heard this one too! I heard it on the radio around the same day I heard "Dare You To Move", and I wrote down the lyrics I could catch. I had no idea it was called Slide, but I got it once I found it!! Go GENIUS!! AFTER WEBBKINZ THOUGH!! "What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful...I wanna wake up where you are.")

And those are the only songs on my iTunes on my computer right now because my computer crashed. I'll sync my iPod soon, though. I can't believe I seriously just wrote all that about all 9 songs...I love "I Dare You To Move". It makes somewhere between the pit of my stomach and my chest around my heart tingle...it reminds me of when I was depressed. This is definitely something I would have wanted to listen to then. Because it's such a MOVING song. Daring me to move. Daring me to get my butt of the floor in my secluded little world inside my head and maybe dance in the rain. This is a dance in the rain kind of song. Twirl in your best dress like Taylor Swift and just not have a care in the world. Where there is salvation. And just "Laugh Your Heart out. Dance In The Rain. Cherish The Moment. Ignore the Pain. Live, Laugh, Love, Forgive, and Forget. Life is Too Short To Be living With Regrets. I could listen to this song over and over again. ^_^ Maybe it's my song for this year. ....Yeah....welcoming back to the planet, to existence, where everyone is, watching me to make sure I'm okay (those who knew), and wondering what happens next after 8th grade. What happens next after Leelee leaves. What happens next now that I'm out of my depression and in school for the last year of my life in Middle School. It's a fall out. It's a resistance that we don't know we're a part of. Tension...but not so much in my social life...between who I am and who I could be (like wanting to do the ceremony at the tomb of the Unknown Soldiers) between what is and what should be (and not knowing what should be with some ppl and things). Forgiveness...inside myself. Where can I run to when I'm scared of myself? My friends. Just let me breathe as I listen to this song and so many things run through, and move me through my head. This is my year to move! And it has been and will be! To move after my depression and to move for the 7th and 6th graders who look up to us. And to move running. Run. Run. Run. Run to not be numb anymore. Run to feel. This song makes me FEEL and FEEL SO GOOD AFTER I FELL LIKE I DID.
What happens when Bisael comes home. What happens when bro gets mad. What happens when I see certain once-hurting people on stage. So many more things that I could write for a lOOOONG time about this. Welcome me to the planet. Welcome me to the existence. Let me see everyone, because everyone's here. Let me wait for them and watch for them like they did for me, even without knowing it, they did.

CLASS OF 2015, I DARE YOU TO MOVE. LIKE YOU DARED ME TO MOVE WHEN YOU WENT ON WITH YOUR LIVES WHILE I WAS DEPRESSED. YOU KEEP ROCKIN' ON IN THE RAIN, EVEN WHEN YOU'RE GONE, AND MAYBE NOT CLASS OF 2015 OF THIS SCHOOL. YOU JUST KEEP ROCKIN' ROCKIN' ROCKIN' ON. YOU BROUGHT ME BACK FROM EMPTINESS, CHAOS, A SILENT STRUGGLE THAT WAS IN MY EYES FOR THOSE WHO LOOKED CLOSE ENOUGH, AND FOR THOSE WHO DIDN'T. YOU BROUGHT ME BACK FROM A LIVING, BREATHING HELL OF A DARK EMPTY SPACE. THE GRAYNESS OF IT ALL SCARED ME. THE FUZZINESS, UNLIKE A CUDDLY TEDDY BEAR, BUT SO MUCH LIKE AN OLD TV WHEN IT CAN'T PICK UP A SIGNAL. IT MADE EVERYTHING DARK AND DENSE, AND THE WORLD SEEMED TO BE SUFFOCATING ME. I FELT AS IF I WERE UNDER A ROCK. SQUISHED IN A MOIST, RAINY, MUDDY, GRAY AND BROWN AND BLACK HOLE. SOUNDS WERE MUFFLED. I smiled. I had fun. I laughed. I had good days, and not so good days, and awful, heart-breaking, mind-tearing days. YOU ARE MY FALL OUT AND MY RESISTANCE. AND I LOVE YOU FOR THAT. NOW....I...


NOW WE CAN RELAX. NOW WE CAN ALL RELAX TOGETHER.
HERE'S MY WISH TO ALL OF YOU.








I DARE YOU TO MOVE.











3/11/11 Friday, 10:10PM

ANOTHER question FOR everyone!!!!

Who likes Paramore???

How well do you know them?

1-10 (1 being you're still trying to figure out what they are, 10 being totally a fanatic)

How much do you like them?

1-10 (1 being you absolutely HATE THEM SOOO MUCH YOU WISH YOU COULD HIDE UNDER A ROCK EVERY TIME YOU EVERY TIME YOU HEAR THEM!!!; 10 being YOU LOVE THEM SOOO MUCH OMG YOU'RE OBSESSED!!!!!! YOU'RE GOING TO MARRY ONE OF THEM WHEN YOU'RE OLDER!!!! [me: okayyyyy then....are there even boys in the band...?? ...lemme check...I'll get back on that])

*THZcouldEND-any_day_NOW!!*

TOASTLY AWESOMEISH (NOT AS MUCH AS FLOWAH/FLOWER!!!) NEW BAND!!!!!

ALLSTAR WEEKEND!!!!!!

Here's my fave song/music vid: A Different Side Of Me (I think...I'll fix it if that's not what it's called)

another song: Journey To The End Of My Life

I'll post some more songs later...

Music SHUFFLE Survey!!! numero uno/#1

1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer
to the question.
4.) NO CHEATING!!!
5.) HAVE FUN FOOZSH!!!
1.) How am I feeling today?
One Man Show by Jonas Brothers (haha this could actually work--I've found that usually you can make the song work ^_^)

2.) How will I feel getting married?
Chemicals React by Aly & AJ (oh my gosh. that TOTALLY WORKS. plus, i know how this song has worked in my life as well...good feelings... ^_^)

3.) What is my best friend's theme
song?
Shelf by Jonas Brothers (we are just full of the jobros today, aren't we??? GREAT SONG!!! I DON'T CARE IF NOBODY HERE AGREES WITH ME!!! I LOOVE THE JONAS BROTHERS!!!..yes...i know the band isn't together. WHO CARES??? THE FAMILY STILL IS!!! AND THEY'RE STILL THE JONAS BROTHERS!!!! mwhaha. haha. haha. ha. ha. ha. anywayz...i have a lot of really good friends. this could probably work for a few of them...a couple maybe? It might work for more than i think cuz [sadly--well...actually I take that back] I can't see in all of your heads. ... Yeah. Definitely a good thing. ^_^)

4.) Highschool is?
No One Mourns The Wicked by Wicked Cast (hmmm...idk how this works...ummm...if you--haha! in highschool...it seems maybe to someone ... [especially someone NOT in highschool] that if you mess up in highschool it's messed up your whole life. That could be true at least in some ways. I wouldn't know. ^_^)


5.) Middleschool is?
Dancing Through Life by Wicked Cast (geez...what's with all the repeats??? oh well, no complaining. MS is def. like this. mindless and careless ... we all wanna be. YOU ALL SHOULD TOTALLY LISTEN TO THIS SONG!!! AMAZING!!! DON'T TAKE FIYERO'S WORDS TO HEART THOUGH!!! [that's the dude singing--yeah...the one with the great voice...the one...you can just imagine him...tall...yeah whatev..to old for me...I get it. quit dreaming girl. Dream on something else. ^_^ and i am choc full of happiness today!)

6.) I am...
The Driveway by Miley Cyrus (amazing song. I am the driveway. People drive all over me. They want to go places and they run over me just to get to them. yup. that's me. does it hurt? sometimes. but not all the time. nooow...when we listen to the song...the words...now, that is ALSO me. Go find the lyrics SOMEBODY PLEASE! tell me you don't hate her. i'll thank you so deeply you'll think I'm crazy...uh...crazIER)

6.) How is today?
We Go Together by John Travolta [plus Grease cast???] (uhuh...i guess....wait...YES! I went to the movies today with Screened, Supercrazygamegeek, Leumaster, #14 [must find better codename!], #14's bro [don't have anything else..i know sad...'tis sad...'tis true. so yeah. and that was it. yupperz pupperz we all belong together, man. I swear idk what i'd do without all these ppl [plus others that didn't go...to the movie's]


7.) What is in store for this week?
Goodbyes by Savannah Outen (more goodbyes??? I just FINISHED with that! OOoohh this makes me think of 
Miss Chicky-Island [omg i bet you can tell who that is if you know me...awesome right? vague but knowing. oh yeah, man.] lol I guess this could be the week of "goodbye to some of my bad habits" and more goodbye to the things I've been working on for the past few weeks. every day is another goodbye. "why does it have to be so hard?" huh. cuz life's like that. "I just wish that everything was the same." but then we wouldn't be where we are now, would we? isn't that a scary thought? yeah, that's what I thought)

8.) What song best describes my parents?
You and Me by Lifehouse (I guess...I mean, they're with me and my bro forever. and together, of course it's hard what with Dad being a recovering drug addict [difference btwn recovering and just regular ol' druggy...once you get in recovery, you're always in recovery until you die. Then, you go to the hands of the Lord and you're okay. But until then, he will always be a recovering drug addict. Being addicted is a disease. Nothing wrong with morals. Everything wrong with the mind. With the surroundings. With the Self-Aimed Thoughts and Feelings. so yeah, want more about that? think i'm wrong. well, I'm not. But I'd be glad to talk more about it ^_^]. It's hard for all of us. [wow. i went so long that it's already on the next song...whoops... ^_^)

9.) How is my life going?
Walk Away by Martina McBride (I guess so. But this would be ME talking to MYSELF. ^_^ thx for reminding me stupid shuffle ^_^--no hard feelings when I crack my iPod's screen, right? oh...wait...I already did that....mmmkkk..uh...yeah...^_^ hahha)

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
Streetcorner Symphony by Rob Thomas (YES!!! YES!!! YES!!!! I WANT YOU TO PLAY MR. BLUE SKY AS WELL!!!! BUT THIS!!! YES!!!! OOOH YEAH BABY!!!!! WHEN I WAS RUNNING TODAY [yes I ran...I'm Miss Fit ^_^ LOL--okay fine, I won't take it THAT far] I LOOOOVE THIS SONG...OH YEAH...MY SENTENCE...SO I WAS RUNNING TODAY AND THIS CAME ON AND I WAS LIKE...PUMPED! SO MUCH!!! "All the colors of this world will run together more than ever." SO MUCH MORE THAT I WANT TO PUT ON HERE!!! IF YOU DON'T GO LOOK AT ANY LYRICS!!! CHECK THIS OUT !!!! PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE!!! IF YOU DO!!! I WILL!!!! MAKE A STORY/POEM/SOMETHING [along those lines...give me ideas ^_^] IN YOUR HONOR!!!! LOVE YOU MUCH!!! [i already try to love you much even if I hate you...yeah...doesn't make sense, I know--but remember the Golden Rule and... Remember The Titans! and the SPARTANS!!! yeah!]

11.) Is this going to be a good year?
Driving Me Stupid by Serabee (ummm is that good or bad??? uhhh... I guess from here I might drive meself stupid... LOL ^_^ and other ppl...like mey brother...okay...yeah myself. lol.

12.) What's your love life like?
Freddy My Love by Cindy Bullens (... ... ... HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHA now THAT IS ENTERTAINMENT. does nobody get it except for me??? okay fine, okay...so my favorite character in Harry Potter...well...one of my faves anyhooz is Fred Weasley...and I have always been certain [absotootenly certain ^_^ --as certain as I am that I am about to spill part of my soul out here...and that never happens on SPLURGE PATROL...] that if I was in Harry Potter....like the story....Fred Weasley would be meant for me. ^_^ so you see how funny that is for me. yupperz pupperz extremely funny. I'VE BEEN RIGHT ALL THIS TIME!!! YESH!!! ^_^ yup...right ... and a bit crazy...just...a...bit...[crud this next song is almost done...crud]

13.) What's your favorite?
Finale by Wicked Cast [mostly Kristin Chenoweth and Idina Menzel] (hmmm...idk ... i guess. it's good. a good finale. sooo my fave song??? i guess. I'd love to be able to sing it. But it's not my fave song. NEXT!!)

14.) Best bored activity?
Check Yes Juliet by We the Kings (ummm...check yes...uhh...surveys??? juliet...reading long books??? ...the song...dreaming. yupperz pupperz. dreaming....dreaming about all this. this is another song that came on when yours truly was running. I love to picture this! ... with the lead singer of Metro Station...maybe a little different though, cuz i don't associate this voice with him...yup I love to be IN THE SONG. love it..)

15.) Favorite quote?
Right Here, Right Now by HSM Cast: Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens (I LOOOVE THIS SOOONG!!!!!! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!! yup...she's a little crazy for lovin' hsm sooo much...that may be so. but i love it all the same. yup. fave quote. fave song title quote ... okay...fine one of them anyhow...geez, I can't choose one! Don't hurt me, pwease. Love it. LOVE IT!. be in the moment, man. "Take time to stop and smell the roses, but make sure you don't forget where you're going." --MOI QUOTE!!!

16.) Song played in your wedding?
The Nicest Kids In Town by James Marsden (all righty then...idk how this would work...maybe my wedding is going to be really modern and bouncy. scary. haha. just imagine the uncles and aunts of YOUR family dancing to this...and YOUR DAD OH MY GOSH YOUR DAD AND YOUR BROTHER OH MY GOSH YOUR BROTHER DANCING TO THIS okay we are all scarred for life. sorry for that folks.

17.) What is your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush's (can be celeb ^_^) theme song?
Walk Away (Remember Me) Paula DeAnda (Does everything have to be sooo....true??? really??? geez thanks stupid shuffle. remember guys and girls: you have to walk away sometimes...whether from a breakup or a pointless crush or a [gasp!..yup..we are a sad sad sad excuse for a human race] celebrity crush. yupperz pupperz...learn to walk away BUT REMEMBER!!! EVERYTHING!!!)

18.) The song that best described your childhood days...
Gotta Go My Own Way by HSM Cast [it says that...but it's really just Vannessa Hudgens ppl!!! heeellloww???] "I've got to move on and be who I am. I just don't belong here. I hope you understand....might find our place in this world someday. But just for now, I gotta go my own way." YUP. so. me. I wasn't that kind of person. I guess I'm technically out of my childhood days and into my teenage years. My childhood days were about the process of finding myself. And now, my teenage years/pre-teen years is ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT AND REALIZING THAT I PROBABLY SHOULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! i love it.)

19. The song that keeps playing in your mind...
Ultimate by Lindsay Lohan (oh yeah. this has come into my head randomly before. it took me a sec to realize where it was from ^_^)

20. The song that will make me happy.
Junebug by Robert Francis (I don't know this song really well...like...at all...but I heard to the whole thing FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! today. and I wasn't even listening. So yeah, this will probably make me happy. Most songs do.


21. The future will be...
Make Some Noise by Hannah Montana (don't laugh! seriously. don't. if it'll quiet some of you down a little more, just know that there is one among us that has the Barbie Girl theme song on his/her iPod. And Miley is just fine, thank you. I love her to death. Amazing voice. But she's not perfect. As if the rest of us are! Geez. ppl.. anyhow...this is...definite thank you. I'm just starting my rolling claps of thunder and I'm just realizing that "there's nothing wrong with just being yourself" and..."you can't just sit back and watch the world change. It matters what you've got to say. There's no one else who can stand in your place. So come on it's never too late. So maybe it's your time to lift off and fly...." I'll stop there...cuz I'd keep going till the end of the song... ^_^)


22. What is your biggest dream?
Fearless by Taylor Swift. (yup. to be fearless is my biggest dream. to stand up to someone every other day. to earn your respect, whether you like it or not. To respect others as much as I respect myself. I wanna be fearless. I'm almost halfway there)


23. What is your deepest darkest secret [according to the shuffle masters!]?
Cruella De Vil (DJ Skribble Spot Remix) by Ashanti Feat. Sis Shi Shi (i guess my deepest darkest secret is that I'm really EVIL MWHAHAHAH! dang. my secret has been revealed. the world is ending. I don't even really like this song. omg! i don't like a song??? really??? i've got to be kidding!!! i know!!!! sooo weird!!! ... ... ... i really REALLY don't like this song ... ... but I bet it was fun to record. not cuz of the song. but cuz of how it sounds.


a song to end!! :: I shuffled it again until i found one that caught my eye:


La La Land by Demi Lovato


I SHALL MAKE ANOTHER ONE SOME OTHER TIME!!!