12/2/11 (it's really 12/5/11 hahaha a....whoops) • Day 6(ohmigoshwhatajoke): something you would like to change about yourself.

I would like to stop being affected by Dermatillomania by next year.
(so I can make my chapel talk on it. It'll be scary if I do [make the chapel talk] because of all the judging that will be in people's heads [people like pretty, nice girls and guys who hardly know me but then won't make an effort]).

I would like to smile more

And

I would like to slouch less.

I am not smiling right now
And

I am slouching.
So here you go. I've got my work all cut out for me. (that and the fact that I have to catch up on my challenge thing lol)

11/29/11 • Day 3: what you think your reason for being here is

I think my reason for being here is to live the life I have imagined.

It is to follow my dreams, and not only follow them..but to be a certain "some people":

 Some people follow their dreams, others hunt them down and beat them mercilessly into submission.   Kendall, Neil


I am here to spread the Glory of God through my actions, words, and decisions. I am to be a messenger, server, and caregiver in the name of God. And I am. It is how, who, and why I am.


I am here to float my own boat while I still have a boat to float.
I only get to live once, I am scared of dying, I see no way for me to get past that...but I think I live to not be afraid of dying.

I am on Earth because this is where I was placed.
I feel I am here to spread joy and love and FEELINGS. All feeling. All of them.

I am here to spread the news of my Creator, of my life, of my learnings and teachings (from me but mostly other people ^_^), of my dreams, of my passions, of my loves, and of my everythings and everything elses.

I am here for you. I am here for me. I am here for the world.
I am here to leave a mark. At least...leaving a mark is what I hope I'm here for.

Personally, I believe my ultimate reason for being here is because God wants me here. If God didn't want me here, He wouldn't have made me here, He wouldn't have placed me here, and I just wouldn't be here. Simple as that.

I am here to live my own life.

[quote from:     http://quotationsbook.com/quote/11468/      ]

11/27/11 • Day 1: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself

I hope: To stop tearing at my nails and the skin around my nails. To let my nails grow out. That I'll let my friend who won't be with us next year (going to a Carolina I think?) know exactly how much he means to me (THAT'S A LOT [CA.DB. or Sherlock or Holmes?]. To finish one of my stories. To win a prize from all those sweepstakes I enter. To get more money. To at least almost have a boyfriend lol (only a part of me). To meet a huge role model (anyone). To see Landon McIntyre again
TBC

...continuing...from tumblr to blogger :)

So all of the above...plus,

I hope: To fix my dermatillomania. That all my friends will know that I really do care about them. To stop feeling so stressed. To waste my time a lot less :))).

I dream: Of having a boyfriend (only a part of me, again ^_^). Of meeting my role models. Of singing in front of large crowds. Of going to Snowmass, Colorado...I miss it soo much....  .  In color. Of meeting and spending a day with the Harry Potter cast. Of wonderful things and places where the only real fear is the adventure out of books that can be beat by the will of the good in around typically 300 pages. Of starring in a movie. Of meeting all my Disney role models...and singing with them...

I plan: To sell something to get money to help my family/to make me happy. To stop the peeling-feeling. To get good grades on my midterms and final exams. To go to Italy and Spain this summer with SeñorB, The Worm, Scarbs, SñradiffB, a couple other teachers...and all those other people. To find a mission trip to go on. To wing it.

You know me. I won't give you my face :) I promise I'm smiling.