I Love My Dreams, But...

It's really sad when I wake up and there are all these sounds going on .... because I promptly forget what happened in my dream and whether I relax or search for it, it's like the dream just goes *poof*.

I have great dreams. No, honestly, I do. They're all colorful, vibrant, crazy (and I don't necessarily mean colorful in actual colors although I remember them all in color). There's usually a bad guy that we're running from and trying to fix the wrongdoings of (often a group of people). I think once it was like Star Wars and people were using the force. Last night probably got jumbled in with the 6 episodes of Switched At Birth I watched because I mean, dude, have you seen the new commercials/previews/teaser (sorry, I never really know what to call it) on ABC Family for the new season premiere? It makes me wonder why I ever stopped watching. Maybe I am so shallow that it was because Emmett and Bay didn't get back together....

I think they're adorable for life. One of you randoms out there have to believe in it too, right? I have some support?

Whether or not I have support, I guess, is fine. I mean, I still reeeaalalllyyy wanted Bae and Emma to be together from Once Upon A Time, even though Baelfire is obviously dead... And, well, that ended well before certain things happened but... you know, I held on to it well after people around me were like WOO CAPTAIN SWAN 5EVER -- except actually I think all the other Baelfire x Emma people were transitioning the same way I was actually so this last little paragraph thing is probably completely useless or something.

Anywayyysss
I am assuming last night's dream is probably all jumbled up with Switched At Birth, and that assumption comes because when I try to think of my dream in pictures or anything, really, I come up with what I remember to be Switched At Birth. And I guess you could assume maybe some of my dreams were scenes from the show, but I honestly don't think so. Even now, it came to me that Emmett may have been a dude in my dream, but I really don't think so.... When I try to search for memories of the dream... all I find in relation to the dream is a bunch of feelings that I relate to the dream. Now, I'm not exactly sure what they are but I feel a sort of excitement in myself, the excitement I get from having dreams.

So here's to quiet mornings and writing down dreams.
But, also, here's to the fact that I don't completely feel like crying when I lose a dream anymore. I've decided that it's still somewhere inside me and will probably affect my future writing in some way. Meanwhile, I have lots of dreams... lots more than a lot of people have in their conscious easy-to-pick-and-pull-from memory. Also, one of the first fiction stories I started writing was based on a dream. I remember that dream forever. I love the happenings like that so much. Therefore, I'm so so so glad I taught myself that it's okay if I lose a dream...even if it was really grand...

So here's to the dreams that get sucked back into the deepest recesses of my brain where, although I can't even find them, they make me a much cooler person than I was before.

Love/Peace/ChickenGrease/Rock on  ♥ ♥ ♥

Website of the Dayze. And other stuff...Some things are more important than a 365 day challenge

Website of the DAYZE: http://www.stop-compulsive-picking.com/

I took this quiz off an OCD website that's stationed out of LA I think??:I've taken it before. A few months ago ... I think I answered yes to more things this time.::

1  I pick skin on my face : Yes

5  I pick skin elsewhere on my body : Yes

8  I often pick my skin when I am anxious and/or depressed : Yes

9  I often pick my skin when I am bored : Yes

10  I often pick my skin when I am engaged in other activities (i e , watching TV, talking on the phone, using the computer, at a movie theatre, during class, while driving) : Yes

11  I am often not aware that I am picking my skin, and only realize it after some time has passed : Yes

12  I have noticeable scabs, sores, or scarring where I pick my skin : Yes

15  I often pick in the morning before work/school : Yes

16  I often pick at night before bed : Yes

17  Prior to, or during a skin picking episode, I often feel a sense of tension, itching, tingling, or pressure?: Yes

18  I often feel powerless to resist the urge to pick my skin : Yes

19  I get a sense of relief, gratification, and/or pleasure when I pick my skin : Yes

22  I am significantly distressed, anxious, and/or depressed about my skin picking : Yes

24  I spend this many hours a day picking at my skin : 3

25  The following are the areas of my body which I most frequently pick: Fingers, toes, heels, lips

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So in case you can't tell...I spend a fairly good amount of my time looking for stuff on Dermatillomania. What stinks, though, is that not much is known about it. I want people to know this exists. I know there are thousands of other diseases and disorders people are studying and need to study ..... But I need you to know. I want you to talk to your families about this. Please, anyone who comes here .. Please.

I think this is what I want to do for my gold award (girl scouts). Raise awareness. Do you think they would like that idea?

I really want to. I can't wait to share this with my school.

11/30/11 (actually done on 12/1/11. Sorry. I do have homework, you know. But now I get to do TWO at ONCE! YAY!) • Day 4: how you think your life would change if you achieved your dream

If I achieved my dream of becoming a published author (and my ultimate dream of becoming a (at least fairly) well-known published author...well....

*My family would have a larger income
*It would let my mom and dad be less stressed
*Maybe I would have to grow up a little more. But, no it wouldn't keep me from being a kid. I'm a total kid. :)
...that sounds funny. Like, I'm a LEGIT KID. Noooo waayyyy....!!!
*I wouldn't be in so much denial about the fact that I might have to leave this house that I am sitting in right now that is 99% of all I remember. Or 98% because I can't exactly discern my earliest memories from what was in this house and what was in the house I lived in until I was two years old. ..hmmm... I always forget that I wasn't brought here first after I was born.
*I would be famous, first of all! And that would have its pros and cons, of course.
*I probably wouldn't be hammered too much by the paparazzi like celebrities...but I might still get people to ask for my autograph (if they recognize me LOL)

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Okay. I really don't want to graduate from high school without finishing one of my stories. At least ONE!
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I have GOT to work on them. At least in the summer. If I decide to write on Jodi...you can check here at this big long link of ten words now.

Anyways...that's all..for this one at least. :)
Now I just want to be done so I can work on Jodi (I can't find Finn. Big. Surprise).
And I have to go eat.
And do my homework.
But oh well..

:D
Day in the life.

11/27/11 • Day 1: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself

I hope: To stop tearing at my nails and the skin around my nails. To let my nails grow out. That I'll let my friend who won't be with us next year (going to a Carolina I think?) know exactly how much he means to me (THAT'S A LOT [CA.DB. or Sherlock or Holmes?]. To finish one of my stories. To win a prize from all those sweepstakes I enter. To get more money. To at least almost have a boyfriend lol (only a part of me). To meet a huge role model (anyone). To see Landon McIntyre again
TBC

...continuing...from tumblr to blogger :)

So all of the above...plus,

I hope: To fix my dermatillomania. That all my friends will know that I really do care about them. To stop feeling so stressed. To waste my time a lot less :))).

I dream: Of having a boyfriend (only a part of me, again ^_^). Of meeting my role models. Of singing in front of large crowds. Of going to Snowmass, Colorado...I miss it soo much....  .  In color. Of meeting and spending a day with the Harry Potter cast. Of wonderful things and places where the only real fear is the adventure out of books that can be beat by the will of the good in around typically 300 pages. Of starring in a movie. Of meeting all my Disney role models...and singing with them...

I plan: To sell something to get money to help my family/to make me happy. To stop the peeling-feeling. To get good grades on my midterms and final exams. To go to Italy and Spain this summer with SeñorB, The Worm, Scarbs, SñradiffB, a couple other teachers...and all those other people. To find a mission trip to go on. To wing it.

You know me. I won't give you my face :) I promise I'm smiling. 

quote of the DAYZE

Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so.

Belva Davis, broadcast journalist