TGIO NANOWRIMO!

:D I'm really actually proud of myself for the work I put into my novel for the National Novel Writing Month challenge that happens every year in November. :)
I put up a good fight, I think.
My final word count is 10,197 words :))
Yes, that's very very far away from the target of 50,000, but I do believe I was a bit lot too preoccupied being epic in my social and personal life and dealing with all of that stress to get to the target.

I am so so happy the new 9th grade English teacher was so insanely supportive of NaNoWriMo, and I plan to do it for many many more years.

Sooo...
TGIO!!!
Even though it IS over and I'm NOT done (as you can see here), I plan on finishing my novel in the early months of next year at the very latest.

Congrats to all who met the challenge and congrats to all those who didn't but tried!
The idea that I am brilliant for even trying is what has kept me going. And that the world isn't going to end just because I didn't finish, so I'll probably have enough time to finish.

Sooo Black Friday..

Well it was cool. It really was.
I think my mom went crazy at one point. It wasn't visible to anyone else but me (and maybe my dad). Idk.
I guess I'm just not used to buying ALL OF THAT STUFF AT ONE TIME. Is anyone else with me? Anyone?
...
*cricket*

Yes, well, we were in Best Buy for a good hour even after mom found out (less than an hour) they didn't have what she was looking for. But then they got distracted by the 3d TV. (Expect that to come back up at a later date ;)). Okay, okay, so I got distracted by it earlier too lol. I was watching a video of a fish and I just .... I HAD TO KEEP MYSELF from reaching out to touch it.

Here's a monologue:
Me: woah
Me: Oh my gosh...
Me: Oh my gosh.
Me: *getting louder* Oh my gosh!
Me: *notices people passing by* ...

I really really wanted to reach out to touch that fish.

Annnd to be continueeeed... (Because this is a good place to stop but my iPad actually does weird things when I write too much on here oh wait it didn't happen but I really need to go my time is limited today. Very limited. I'll be back, I promise. And don't I always come back? Yes, yes I do. I'd never just up and leave this place. It means too much and it's done too much for me. And it's been too good to me ... And yeah enough with the sappy ness [even though I love it]: love peaches chicken greases. Rock on)

Word of the Dayze

Godhead- (noun)

a. the essential being of God; the Supreme Being
b. the Holy Trinity of God the father, Christ the Son, and the Holy Ghost

Thinklings

Just because you can't see it, doesn't mean it's cancer.

Oh boy, guys!

I've already had 3 viewers on here today! Omg I can't believe it! that is so cool!

YAY

Well. My Heart Hurts.

Well now that I've officially broken up with my boyfriend of eight months....
I figured I'd come here first to share the news.
Then I'll go to 2belonginthisworld
and eventually, when I have more time, I'll let my tumblr peeps know.
As if most of them knew I was dating someone in the first place, right?

Anyways, I figured it was most important to come here because this has ALWAYS been here for me.

I think I started this after my first (and middle school) heartbreak.
I'm actually kinda glad I got to be the one to officially end this.
Somehow, it seems it's left me with a little more closure.
Now, I just need to find my phone and shoot him a brief text and pointing him towards his Facebook messages for the lengthy explanations and thank yous and stuff.

Because I really appreciate all he did for me.
It was a beautiful, wonderful relationship and I adored him. I really have all this time.
He was a rock and he was the Venus that blew my mind and kept me going and came to me at the most important times.
I guess one of us just got uprooted–maybe both of us–and we drifted a little too out of reach.

[*It's Not My Time by 3 Doors down]

Anyways, that's it. I'm single. I'm a free bird again! But this time, the free bird is once again sad and there is a great weight on my wings.
After I sent him the message, I changed my relationship status from nothing listed to "single".
As I started writing the message, I made a chat for me, Lexbri, Chappers, and Sherlock.
We talked and I cried and I know they support my decision and they'll always always be there for me and I love them more than anything and I think they kind of know that. But not enough. They quite possibly will never know enough.
They'll come close, because they're just that awesome ;) but I'll make sure my love and appreciation for them will be so great that they will never, ever, fully, completely understand.
--I'll share the beautifully kind and generous words they said about me later. Right now, it's kind of late and I have to take a practice ACT tomorrow for the first 4 periods of school. Wheeeee :P

[*Real World by Matchbox Twenty]

After I changed my relationship status, I changed my profile picture to that one with my state date from XC that I was meaning to change to before I officially made up my mind anyways.
I also changed my cover photo to one of me and Lexbri that Chappers took when Sherlock came back in town and we (and a couple others, including Bisael) spent a few hours in market square
When Laure from France gets back with me, I may change my cover photo to that of me and those two lovely Frenchies. I miss them.

Oh my gosh. God, I am so blessed with these wonderful, beautiful people in my life. Whether they come and stay in my life for eight months, 10 years, 16 years, 4 years, 1 year and counting, or a few days, thank You so much for all of them. You are so Great. And You have made me so blessed and I don't know why sometimes You do these such great things for me, but I am forever, forever grateful and thankful.
And I think I'm at peace now. For now, anyways.
I'm meeting with Dr. S on Thursday. I can't wait to tell her and get a good cry out of it.
I love You, God!
Thank you for all of this and thank You for Sir Some Guy. Thank You for all the time You gave us together. I so appreciate it...
There are so many good memories of that.
and it seems that he just might always have a special place in my heart of memories.
Thank You. Goodnight. I see now a little.... How Thou Shall Have It.
I went out on a limb and I feel okay.
But still, I pray:
I still need to put this in Your hands and let go of it because I'm not done letting go yet... but here it is, Father, here are my sorrows and this relationship and I put it in Your hands now so You can have it As Thou Shall Have It.
Amen.

*Soldier by Gavin Degraw*

Thank You for being my soldier and for helping me to be a soldier, God.
Thank you, my friends... my dearest, dearest friends... for being my soldiers and helping me to be a soldier.
I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able to do this as well without you any less of any of you.

HAHAHA. PINTEREST.

HAHAHA WOW I haven't been on Pinterest since that first October day that I got it. I remember that was a Sunday.

Okay. Well... I just felt like sharing my thought.. So.. tata for now!

I Will Be A Writer. I Will Write Books.

Say hi to my new mantra!
I'm waiting.
Seriously, go ahead and say it...

...

And if that's something that you would like to become true of you as well.. um there's this thing (THIS REALLY COOL THING, BTW) called National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo for short) and this really long linky here goes to their website (nanowrimo.org). Since it's the fifth, we're on the fifth day of writing so if you start now you may have a whole heck of a lot of catching up to do (about 8,800 words if you want to go by the clean-cut division that the NaNoWriMo peeps made of the 50,000 words in 30 days)... but you will be among friends in having a lot of catching up to do.

I, for one, have school that I have to o to and study for and do homework for. I have 5,000-something words, and as I previously mentioned, the "clean-cut" and ideal amount of words to have on the 5th of November is 8,000-something.
So.

That is okay.
You get pep talks from people in your NaNoMail .. and it's really really super nice because each and everyone of the pep talks so far has helped me.
I'll tell you what I liked best about each one later. Maybe this weekend or something when I have more time.

As for now, Happy Non-Daylight Savings Time!

Andnnndd.. I am proud to announce that my Cross Country team won our State meet on Saturday!! WE WON WE WON WE WON WE WON!!!!!
AND OH MY GOO IT WAS SO EXCITING!!!

And now I'm going to get the date, "2012" on the back of my jacket and we get rings. Guys! I'm going to get a RING of all things! For my cross country team!
Even though I've officially moved over to the bowling team, now that I am no longer doing cross country, I have this empty spot where it used to be.

As we were riding on the bus back from the meet, I looked around and suddenly had no idea what the heck I was going to do with myself after that.
I don't know what I'm going to do with myself anymore.
Cross Country, over time, became my life this year.

Oh, and I lost my iPad, which is probably the worst news.

I also saw Sherlock and Babb, which is probably the best news.

Other bad news is that I still haven't heard from Sir Some Guy (my boyfriend) and now we're going on 4 weeks.
As I said on my pinker ;) blog, I'm willing to start over with him, but I'm not going to wait forever for him to contact me.
This really is NOT COOL.
NOT COOL AT ALL.
And it's annoying the heck out of me.

However, I have homework that I need to be figuring out how to do.
Ugh.
So much homework.
At least it's only 9. It feels like 10. And that's probably because I'm not used to Non-Daylight Savings Time yet.

That's okay, though. I'll probably get used to it.

^_^ I'm getting back into the habit of blogging and it's really making me happy.
I might even (if I have time, which I probably won't) give my blog (yes, this one!) the makeover it's been silently screaming for since forever over the weekend.

So,
love/peaches/chicken greases/rock on,
Kitty