Magpie 222

Thank you Magpie Tales/Tess

Time Capsule
Candy
it’s just candy
it’s simple really, when it’s in between your teeth
Forget the metaphor
We just want to feel better, you and I,
you and I, addiction, you and I, addiction
Don’t worry just because the little pieces inside the pill look nothing like the skin on your face.
Your teeth aren’t perfect and your lip gloss looks silly,
sometimes,
but you shouldn’t even be worrying
because
We just want to feel better, you and I,
you and I, addiction, you and I, addiction.
This is a time capsule and it will take you to the best parts where I was too
and it will feel better.
Blood will not ooze out of your wounds, but green shiny dust will
and you will be a fairy and I will be a monster but it will get better.
Don’t let it be a metaphor
because if you do the death won’t die
and you will continue in an emptiness that I never saw fit
and you will be normal and old and gray and won’t live the life I,
you and I, addiction,
imagined.
and you will still be with your pink lipgloss and your white teeth
and blood will drip from your wounds
and you will, in fact, die.

So Far Today...

I made two kinds of banana bread (from an old family recipe from my Granny but I added cinnamon, nutmeg, cinnamon sugar, something else, and Trader Joe's pumpkin pie spice on top on one... melted bittersweet chocolate chips marbled into the other)...

I glued a book together (yay E6000 glue! and yay for porches!)....

And I've panicked about my first swim practice today. It's safe to say that swimming isn't my forte and although I'm not completely terrible at it, I'm a lot worse than a lot of the ones younger than me (that's most of them) and I am still freaking out about it. My chest gets tight (which is totally not good for holding the breath) and I'm so afraid of not doing form right and everything and it's three weeks into practice and ugh I really really hope I can have my own lannneeee   

HEEYY!!

 So, uh, just to get a few things straight..

oh my gosh to a recent follower who's unmoderated comment has been sitting and waiting for me to publish it... I AM SO SORRY I'M LIKE NEVER ON HERE I have a tumblr and it ruined my poor bloggers :((

Buttt on the bright side... I can't get into my tumblr right now becauuuseee I set up the extra security thingy where to log in I have to use a code from my phone that they send me and it expires after a couple of minutes and then if I try to log in from mobile, I need a different code than normal that I forgot and don't want to take the time to try to find because I actually have things to do ... and I deleted the app on my phone (which is why I got logged out of it on mobile) becauuuseee I wanted to take pictures of NeedToBreathe and I didn't have any more space on my phone. During those two hours of the NeedToBreathe concert + Foy Vance, I actually used up all the rest of the space on my phone, my camera (32GB!! <<... a lot had been used up from Disney World) and my dad's phone (lawl oops). But that was cool anyways because I got to use the rest of the time not worrying about taking pictures or saving live recordings of the songs (I love live recordings), but just getting into the music (which is a great feeling because their music is completely on my level and brain wavelength and everything. It really speaks directly to me. I love deep, deep noise.)

Also, for any of you here.... the first 7 followers are completely irrelevant haha I kind of wish I could delete them cuz they're my friends (from school) and they don't actually exist on those google accounts anymore haha. I've had this since 7th grade.

Hopefully I'll start posting more on it again... I'm going to change the theme soon, actually, and I may have mentioned that previously around "Spring Cleaning" or something.

I probably wouldn't delete them anyways, though, because they /are/ my friends (even though one of the guys has two accounts following me -_- and then my brother might too and oh look it's me! I'm following me too!) so it's just kind of a silly clump of middle schoolers right there. ^_^


It's true that tumblr is a lot easier to connect to other people through and easier to navigate and easier to quickly share and post, but this place is reallllyyy super duper important to me and, no, I won't be doing the crazy 2000s-shortened-words-lots-of-z's-hyper talk anymore haha but I hope you don't think my grammar will be correct all the time because, well, it won't. This is just me talking to myself pretty much, except for the fact that people have actually started following me and everything.

Also, if anyone knows how to find other people easily...like, other people with similar blogs or similar interests, would you mind giving me some tips??

OOOHhh and   and and I'm going to be opening an Etsy shop sometime this year so get PUMPED.

Thanks for reading.
Love/Peace/ChickenGrease/Rock on ❤❤❤